Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Newfound Feminism and "What is God, really?"

Lately I've been reading Theology for Skeptics by Dorothee Soelle (1929-2003), a German Christian theologian. It's by far the most honest discussion of what it means to believe in God I have ever read, almost to the point of pushy. The most telling parts, though, aren't Soelle's reflections themselves, but rather her stories of the people she encounters in her many social circles (she was active in movements for peace, environmentalism, feminism, and liberation theology). In one particular passage, Soelle describes how one woman came to understand God:

"I remember a feminist group in New York where we tried to speak of our own religious experiences. A woman who has been my friend ever since that day reported on the destructive and humiliating experiences of her Christian socialization. Then she paused and spoke about her sexual experience, which showed her for the first time what might be meant by the word 'God' - that oceanic feeling of not being separate from anything or hindered by anything, the happiness of being one with everything living, the ecstasy in which the old 'I' is abandoned and I am new and different" (43).

How blasphemous! Can it be possible that the closest feeling to experiencing God is sex? Or rather, sex correctly interpreted and, ahem, executed? And yet, how liberating! If experiencing God is like sex, then all of the power-structure relationships, especially those based on gender language that are so denounced in Soelle's book, disappear. Our relationship with God becomes reciprocal - we are in God and God is in us. There are flaws in conceiving of God this way, especially given the misrepresentation of sex in popular media, but the possibility of an immanence so profound certainly cannot be ignored from a spiritual standpoint. Indeed, it might be more fulfilling than it seems.

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